Bitter.....Sweet

Remember the moment
together that we spent
first looks meld with words meant from the start
(as you reach in and then caress my soul)

in the next days when we met
time stopped and was reset
you stepped with each hour more towards my heart
(i, made angel, and then your heaven made whole)

each rendevouz ended
with longing for more than
realities too void of real touch
(or the whispers to feel as they flow past lips)

deep-driven to drive to
a place just to see you,
embrace and ensnare you just as such
(my plea thus silenced as the hourglass tips)

and you claim
its not real
only
a mere fantasy
you abstain
and do not feel,
want it
really
or need it to be

these words
so spoken
left me
weeping
so broken
and bitter

never wanted to talk to
speak with or forgive you
but with one hello I was yours anew
(forgot and forgave all your hurting words)

dove deep in surroundings
my sea, you were all things
i fell, felt all over in love with you
(both our hearts soar, sing, and take to wing like birds)

with each pass of the seconds
the hourglass lost its sands
still dreams of you close in within my skin
(with lips upon lips and our hearts to heart)

these moments, now past when
I was with you last and
each memory a cherished and fragile gem
(but even as I grasp them they break, fall apart)

and i ask myself why
how dare.. how could i
ever have let you leave..let you go
so dear

to me yet of answer bereft
it tears..what is left
and i wait and i waste so
my tears

which run from my eyes
down these cheeks
over lips
and reminds
is bittersweet
like your kiss

which is I know but in my mind
still won’t let go of this second life
and will hold on, and make it right
pay with my soul, keep it alive

this bitter dream
to dream too sweet
within this dream
whispered to sleep

bittersweet dreams
in dreams, asleep be
bye my love